Unsent Letters while I'm Waiting

There are many things that I would like to say to you, but I don't know how Because maybe You're gonna be the one that saves me And after all You're my wonderwall  If I live my life today in a way that I used to live my life before, I would just probably end up lurking online again and talk to a bunch of strangers and tell them everything I know to sound like a smart one and lead them on even if I know that I will just end up receiving bad words from them. That fact would be buried by the lie that these people would fill a certain hole in my heart that no one else can fill. But I won't. Because you already ended that excruciating cycle. You ended it. All of the boys I've loved before was bound to the gates of hell but you were not. You are different; the best and last lesson indeed.  There are lots of things in my mind right now.  One was the things that person that I don't want to be will do in the reality that just hit me. Part of me wanted to ask why? Why ca...