My life is a trash but if I could trade it for him, please let me. Let me be the one to suffer in pain, to lose money just to get diagnosis for a disease that undetermined and unfathomable. Let me be the one to lay on the hospital bed for a very long time. Let me be the one to vomit to feel the body pain, to spend 10k, 12k and 14k a week. Let me be the one.
Maybe, if I could immediately meet You and turned my life around then just be immediately with You just to trade my life for him, please let me. I am begging You. He dreamed of being a good dad, he even bought house and lot already for his future wife and kids. I am destined to be alone for the rest of my life, there's no partner and kids that probably await me years from now, so please, let me. Masakit po that I will never be that wife and the mother of his kids but it would be so much painful for the people that love him so much for him not to be here, walking and laughing side by side with them.
I am someone who is very very very far from Him and lived a life that is full of regrets and bad things. In short, I am just nobody, or I don't know, maybe I am the villain, swords of angels weren't even lifted for me or maybe, my name is not written in the book of life anymore, but I hope, I could fast things forward, turned my life around and trade my life for him or maybe just take me as I am because he deserves all the happiness.
I hope when I consult a neurologist and have my brain checked for an MRI, they will see something and the moment that happened, all of your pain will be gone. I'll be so happy. All the sufferings will be mine from that moment on and you'll be able to smile once again. And hopefully, I'll meet Him there. Isn't that a win-win?
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